Wednesday, March 9, 2011

I'm goin through some changes!

So the roomate and I moved! haha. It's actually just down the st from where we lived in the apartment before last. I hope we stay here for awhile because LOOOORD am I sick of moving! lol The apartment is cute, it's on the 3rd floor, which I LOOVE. haha. We've already got most of the place looking great and feeling like home. I'm glad I can honestly put the whole drama of moving/staying roomates behind me (at least for now) for a long time so I dont have to be so paranoid about it. I think he appriciates the dynamic and trust we have for each other and I'm sure he'd much rather think about other things as well, so I think our living situation is in a good place right now.

So work is...work. I'm still having the same problem of not wanting to get up and go there in the morning, and I'm not sure what that's all about. I know it's kind of getting me in hot water there but in typical Tim fashion, I push the limits until I cant push anymore. lol. Hopefully me pushing the limits doesn't result in me getting fired because that would be...well, awful. I like my job and I'd like to keep it. haha

The rest is just the usual stuff. I'm striving to be a better person, fulfill more of my interests, make my mark on the world. I thought it would be easier to do now that I'm working less but I just have this BLOCKAGE that isn't allowing me to get past it. I went to a few therapy sessions to see if I could make some progress with that but it ended up feeling like I was paying 35 bucks a pop just to talk to a friend I didn't like very much who did nothing but listen to me talk for an hour. Not so beneficial. I need suggestions, commentary, direction! lol. That whole experience sort of pissed me off too because the man who did my evaluation and intake even said to me "Well, clearly you're no wallflower. You need someone who can give you some direction". and I agreed...so I'm not so sure who I ended up getting paired with a 6'4 version of Tinkerbell. ::shrugs:: I'm sure I'll give therapy another stab, just not right now. Maybe after working two jobs for almost 3 years, what I need is to do nothing for awhile. We'll see, I guess!