Saturday, October 5, 2013

still there...

Dear sir that used to be my best friend,

You're still following my blog and I wish you weren't because it hurts to see your picture.

 I recently went through my things and threw out every card, gift tag, letter, and note that you ever gave me because it hurt too much to hold on to them.  I gave away all the stuffed animals and clothes you ever bought me.  I even got rid of those really nice Ben Sherman sneakers that we bought matching pairs of.  I'm also considering changing cell phone providers so that I REALLY will never have an excuse to see you again but a part of me thinks that's a little drastic and crazy (which I am. but only in the fun way).

I'm not sure that I'll ever be ok with you not being around to share all the awesome things that are happening in my life or that I'll ever stop missing our friendship...but I have to try.

and while a really big part of me hates you, a bigger part of me hopes that you're really happy and wishes nothing but the best for you.